IT'S A STRUGGLE

So yeah, as you can probs guess now its autumn/winter my SAD has raised its head.... no biggie, I'm used to it now, the thing I didnt expect was it happeneing at a fairly crappy time in my life, I was a lil low in my mood anyhow, this combine with other crap, meant for the 1st time in about 14-15 year I actually forgot bout my samba's ani of her death, and that combined with already feeling low, meant I kinda beat up on myself

I know I shouldnt feel guilty but I do/did, she was everythin to me.........

Anyway, enough of that, what else have I been upto? well I'v made myself some new twitter profiles, a private 1, and a new social 1, and my old beardedvampyr 1 is now my 'business' account, ie the 1Im gonna b using to post mostly my youtube links to....

Iv kinda figured this way i can keep my adult content and youtube content away from my main account as i know alot of ppl dont wanna see either of those things, this does ofcourse mean hopping from 1 acount to another to another thru various points in the day, luckily you can do it fairly easily on the twitter app

anything else? why yes if you must know, a while ago I decided to try and get out the house and be more active, like jus walk around the front garden, but i figured now, I'd get pretty bored of that easily, so I'v downloaded 1 of those apps for my fone that tracks your journeys, so gonna get out n fo further afeild, itll be scary allright, but I'v bought a bumbag/ fannypack/ waist bag, (whatever you call them) to put the said fone in (itll also double forr my music player), and a few other bits, I highly doubt itll fit my waist (50inches - ouch!) but hopefully if I do this on a regualr basis I'll lose some of my bulk, i got some decent trainers too so hopefully my feet wont feel too bad.....

other than that things have been fairly meh, and boring and normal for me....

thanks for reading

till next time!